Today, i woke up at 12. i missed school in other words, because i finish at school at 12:40 on thursdays.

my arse is actually killing me, it is numb beyond belief *moves to my bed*
i havent done a lot today, i revised how reterovirus' infiltrate cells. and played guitar,
i played Run by Snow Patrol. im feeling pretty introvert today.
i mean, im not actually feeling low. just kind've empty, of speech.

i feel uncomfortable maintaining conversation today, i go through these phases a lot. i personally dont mind them, they give me some down time to be honest, i usually just sit around draw and listen to music.

i just find, where ive placed myself in a vulnerable position of being in love, i wonder how long itll take for that person to become fed up with me.
she assures me she wont.

but i look at myself, im a nerd i know i am, i'm a two-tonal ginger and red haired nerd who plays guitar, hangs around with my friends playing scrabble and draws, writing dramatic songs about depression that no one ever sees whilst listening to the beatles and spending hours telling my twelve followers on blogger my inner thoughts. i also have a supreme lack of confidence.

what is actually attractive in that?

as i said im introvert today. which is ironic seeing as im writing this.
whenever i feel like this i then go through about an hour of the same thought swirling through my mind "I AM BORING"

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i have some metal stars hanging from my ceiling, the light is reflecting off them and the reflections are spinning across from wall to wall.

ive had these stars a long time, theyve been in this room as long as i have, i want to know everything theyve seen, itd be interesting how theyve seen me grow up. how ive changed through life.

its just a thought.

Danielx