ControllingMyFeelingsForTooLong

Im here in my living room, listening to the Yeah Yeah Yeahs, i love the sound of Karen O's voice.
its a welcome change to masculine male voices, i think there should be more women in the music business.

i had a massive Hendrix session earlier, i want to play guitar so badly. i want to do something other than draw and sit on the computer when i get home, i want my own room, my independance in this house again, im pottering around doing very little. its claustrophobic.

today wasnt a bad day, i had double library period sitting with Lisa, Georgia and Glenn, doing art, listening to Enter Shikari. ive gotten really close to Lisa, Rachel and Chris considerably this past week, i think theyre quickly becomming the close friends ive always wanted, in a way its sad as we only have just over 6 months left together.

i like how after spending four snow days with them, we're already talking about the next time we meet up, i love the way we just sit around, we dont have to do anything watch tv and have fun, we dont have to act our age which as i get older im feeling incredible pressure to do so. we can be what we want, who we want, and as long as we're all okay with it it doenst bother us, i can be around these people, and not care how i dress, how i look, how i feel and i know theyll accept me for who i am, i dont have this often, i have this with one other person, with Sophie.

ive been thinking a lot today,
i decided, to avoid using my phone today, i let the battery run out, and ive avoided sitting in my temporary room, and talking talk on msn, ive avoiding mulling around on my own ive tried to use my time up and keep occupied, because i know that ill only become depressed. i can feel it creeping. ive been feeling a little low yesterday, and today so thats why ive decided to keep busy.

ill probably blog again, im sorry this is bland.
Danielx