...ForUs,ForThem,ForYou.

That symbol crash, its like a shiver down my spine, my eyes are blurring when with every blink i feel like im dreaming every time, similar to how it feels being drunk, i breathe more shallow as my mind isnt convinced this isn't normal, and the sweet sophistication of lyrics feels so warm inside of me.

i shouldnt really pretend im something im not.

im going to listen to nine inch nails and contemplate life as it is.
i took photos today, not on my camera but on the one up from my one. it was amazing. just the power. i took pictures of movement, just happiness of my friends you know? i wasnt trying to take amazing pictures. just memories.

im sitting here at my computer, in a way waiting. I have Kurt Donald Cobain crouched down, grasping a guitar, hair knotted, staring at me. my feet are frozen, clutching together for warms, im not relaxed. my legs are unnaturally straight and my arms are down. warmth is too far away.

I'm alive


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Today was marvellous.
the best day out ive had since i saw sophie, ive needed a good time with my friends. we made brownies, played SCRABBLE, we are so fucking cool, Wii, so much mario... jeez.

we then ate and drank hot chocolate, lisa's house is freezing, i have a feeling youll read this, GET HEATING. and watching harry potter. wrapped up in blankets squashed on a sofa :).

it was an amazing day, spending time over lisa's has always been great. and nuala is lovely too when we see her.

everyday these days i find come with their downsides though. like when i told max n tom i didnt want to go in the snow, (which i didnt) and they saw me going to lisa's house. they were fine with it, it just kinda bugged me, like i was doing something i know i shouldnt be. but itll be okay, i know it will. the other thing i realised was when i told one of my best friends id lost my virginity, which admitedly was stupid in the first place, she declared it to the people she was around when i told her not to tell anyone.

however, the has the opposite affect too. with the realisation of negative things in the day, it superimposes the great things, and makes them better, it makes me realise that life wont be perfect, but i have the make the best out of the bad situation, chances will come and go. same with people. that's life.

i hope youve had a good day too.
Danielx