Futurism

Im sitting here, on the shittest Toshiba laptop known to man, the keyboard, especially the space button is fucked, the screen has the biggest neon green crack down the centre of the whole screen and top of the screen and bottom too. its insanely slow too.

this is my friend max' computer, hes going to take computing at university and this is the state of his laptop.

the upside is that its orange, i want an orange laptop ^^

im sitting on the best sofa in the world, i sleep on this sofa 1/7th of my life for the last 3 years.
and its 1:17am, 3 of my closest ever friends are around me, laughing at how pitiful we jointly are at Call Of Duty, this getting insanely drunk on cheap alcohol prancing around the park and staggering across top road (A2) and going to the shittest club in town so they can go pull is how i spend my life. is it strange that two of them are Oxford applicants, when we sound like yobs... it isnt as bad as it sounds i assure you.

but its hard to imagine this coming to an end, this time next year, we'll be all across the country, max at coventry, the other max (probably at) brunel, tom (probably at) southampton, and me maybe at Reading or UCA if im lucky.

we decided long ago, when our weekly arrangement was new that we'd continue this even at university, i think in a way we're all scared of change. heck i know i am. ill be honest im scared incredibly, losing my best friends, but i could also lose my girlfriend. but what is there to say that i wont necessarily lose them, just i wonder how friendships and relationships work, i mean i can obviously try and id want to, but it goes two ways doesnt it? maybe ill just be forgotten, this isnt to say i will be im just saying its a possibility isnt it? mind you they could forget about me tomorrow, any number of possible factors can affect my future...

this leads me onto my two birthday presents, i did have an alteria motiv for these two presents, i want to create memorable things during my last year. i want to look back on it and think yes this was a success even considering the circumstances, succeeding isnt measured by the grades you get in life, but what you make of it, i measure my success by happiness, so if i can overcome my depression, then thats fine for me.

i hope youre okay.
Danielx