RansomNotesKeepFallingOutYourMouth

Isnt it weird?
everybody in the world (with a computer and could read)... if they really wanted to... could read this.. shouldnt that worry me?

i dont think they would given the chance *cough* [im losing my voice] the life of a 17 year old sixth form student, isnt as appealing as it may sound. my life is very uninteresting. literally as i speak i realise im surrounded by object that have probably had a more life... i mean a lava lamp.. what was the process to make that... a box of coco pops... how are coco pops even made?!

i guess in a way, this is me telling you not to read my blog. which is stupid because i want people to read this, it gives me something thats different in my life. for too long my life revolved entirely around going to school for 5 days, going to see some friends during the week, going youth group once a week, and getting pissed every week. maybe every other? depends on whats going on. my life also circulated around my grades, me constantly drawing to try and impress people whose opinions i dont actually give a shit about aslong as they give me what i want.

im now starting to sound like a self centred hypocrite.
im great at selling myself.
*takes a break to eat coco pops*
*realises i could really do with some milk*

anyway.
so i wanted something different, i wanted a new world, a new life where, for a change i could be myself, i can be what i want who i want to be, and of course if i got condemned for this i would pretend like it didnt bother me, but itd feel like rejection even if i would pretend it didnt, but im hidden behind a screen which you can never see behind, this is a new life where everyone knows me for me, but doesnt know me because they cant see me, they cant humanly interact with me.

but does that matter?
do you need to have humanly interraction to be close to someone, physical interraction like a hug? i honestly dont know, but id like to think you dont have to, the power of communication is enough, i think if you can formulate a relationship of any sorts and maintain it through any medium is enough,

but what is enough?
im starting to confuse myself, maybe you too?

human interraction isnt all its cracked up to be anyway, i had a 13 year old, who apparently is in year 9 at my school (although ive never seen her) tell me i look like patrick stump yesterday, and she also punched me in the groin because i didnt conform to her views that Green Day were obviously the greatest band in the world....
i admit i like some green day but id never go as far to say theyre amazing, i love whatsername, but the fact they purely write music, because they know itll sell and they anti-america stance which is so stereotypically punk *rolls eyes* really actually fucking pisses me off..
dont get me wrong, i love multiplatinum selling bands as much as the next person, but i hate fake people... and green day to me are fake.

the fact a child... a mere child. (laughs because im 18 next month) is hating me because of my opinion, really got on my tits. (figure of speech, i dont actually have tits) i mean, ill never go up to her and say, if you want to listen to actual punk music, then listen to the sex pistols or check out the "raw power of iggy and the stooges" two bands, that i have some respect for (even if john lydon sold out and went on a butter advert because his pension is paying up enough). yeah, ill never enforce that on her, for a fact i know shes not the target market... the same as i dont look like a green day fan, (admitedly i did once)

the only reason im going on about this is because she fucking punched me in the balls.

but anyway, that is the downside to physical interraction, rejection has more of a sting to it, usually a mental sting as apposed to a physical one, but do you really need to have a constant human interraction to make something really work?

dont get me wrong i love it, maybe a mixture is always good?
i hope youre okay.
i do.
im going to listen to Fightstar covering Imogen Heap.
now thats better music..
Danielx