please take me back, and take away these tears.
ive had enough of this, and ive had enough of me.
this feeling inside of me, i just hate it.

as i type this im crying. yes im an 17 year old male.
but i cant stand my life anymore. i cant stand who i am.
this deep all consuming pit of darkness sitting under my ribcage
it feels like a blackhole sucking all the life out of me
as ive run out of happiness
and i dont think i can get to 2010 anymore.

im doing that stupid disruptive breathing that children do when they cry
what did i do to be this depressed?
i feel so fucking pathetic ive just had to contact samaritans because im scared of what ill do to myself and i have no one.


i dont think i can be the person everyone wants anymore.
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant.
maybe if i say that enough itll lose meaning so i can.