Ive been playing guitar solidly now for atleast an hour and a half, i think my family hate me, i have my volume up to 70% and i have my headphones in, so whenever i fuck up they hear it loudly. ive locked myself in my room.
my playlist in order is.
From Yesterday - 30 Seconds to mars
Paint Your Target - Fightstar
Secrets Dont Make Friends - From First To Last
Ignorance - Paramore
Give It All - Rise Against
Prayer Of The Refugee - Rise Against
Apologize (cover) - Silverstein
You're So Last Summer - Taking Back Sunday
Cute Without The "E" - Taking Back Sunday
Save Our Selves - The Blackout
The Bird and The Worm - The Used
Hospital - The Used
Pretty Handsome Awkward - The Used
Killing In The Name - Rage Against The Machine
Wake Up - Rage Against The Machine
Fistful Of Steel - Rage Against The Machine
Thoughtless - Korn
what do you think? any songs you think would be perfect to learn.
im going to do art later. i have my emergancy chocolate too. its working, i have 230g of Dairy Milk and 100g of 85% Cocoa Lindt.
shopping wasnt bad today i got Kerrang, which means more posters. :) this makes me smile
i got a moisteriser and two lip balms, one strawberry and one cherry. yes i do care remotely by my appearance. although i went to the shopping centre with my brother his girlfriend and my mother dressed is dusty ripped skinny jeans, a flurorescent yellow t-shirt and a black dotted white criminal damage hoodie... walking in the snow with vans on too. T_T
so i caught a few peoples eyes, yes i saw them looking at me...
im in a relatively pissed off mood. today hasnt been a good day, well yesterday wasnt great. i started off feeling depressed it was going to be a low day.. the plan was to go to charlottes with jess, jess, matt, suzie, lyd, charlotte, anya, dharyl, brenden, james, lee, emily but the people in gillingham got stuck in gillingham and rainham where charlotte lives was too far in the snow, so it got cancelled. so i went to the park with rob chris rachel and karen. until i got a massive headache. which cut my day short. i then sat on msn and waited for 4 hours. which wasnt fun :/ i got kinda bored. with a bad headache = bad mood.
i was meant to be going to max n toms in the evening. with the other max. the other max's couldnt come because he too lived in rainham and his mums car had a tree fall on it, so he was stuck. so i went to max n toms on my own.
i was going to get so drunk that i threw up. i wanted to do that i was in the mindset where i just want to fuck myself and my body up in the worst possible way and i dont care how much pain it caused me.
the evening started off well suprisingly. just us 3, we never go as a 3. its always 4. but hey we made do. tom challenged me to Centurion which is 100 shot of cider, one a minute for 100 minutes. but i wasnt in the mood. so i made it to 25 and stopped played assassins creed 2 and rejoined at 50 till 78 then got bored. i didnt get drunk, i have a strangely high tollerance to alcohol probably coz i drink so frequently. but it worked out at around 2 1/2 pints... so meh it wasnt much... max bailed at 30 and didnt start. and tom went all the way to 100. the thing is those two dont have a high tollerance to alcohol and were pissed. so started toasting every shot. to random things which started off funny... but then they started taking the piss out of me. they then kept making jokes about how.... hmmm.. i wont say.. well they were acting cuntish lets put it that way. which really threw me into a bad mood. nevertheless we then went outside... time now 10pm and went sledging down the road. which cheered me up. especially when a 4x4 came along and told us to hang onto the tow bar as he went about 20mph up the road XD on a plastic sledge. XD
a few more rides later, a few close calls with moving cars, a few crashes into park cars which involved alarms going off O_O. we decided to head in. after i got shouted at from a window to go in or the police will be phoned...
sigh fucking great.
but then tom managed to be a prick again. so i just pushed him in the snow and walked off..
it was around 11 now. so we watched Donkeypunch and i fell asleep.
rather shitta pissup tbh,
i came home to a mouthful and a half from my father which i cant be bothered to even type about as it deserves it own blog :). man i fucking love life.
Danielx
2 comments:
=/ argh people are pricks. Look after yourself, I know it's tempting to go out and have a fuck up with yourself.
Things will get better, I'm sure near to everything depends on outlook.
x
these are my best friends though, and its only because they were pissed... :/ its fine, i dont hold it against them.
is it worrying that i try and do it quite frequenty? :/
Danielx
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