So here i am.
+ Death Cab for Cutie - I Will Possess Your Heart
which is rather fitting i suppose.
today i had school, yuck. i'll miss it i know i will, 10 months time and ill be going to university hopefully...
it's scarey but i'm looking forward to it. i just want to change things, i want my life to be different to what it is, ill be allowed to be who i want to be, i wont be forced to ever eat meat again *satisfied grin* i wont have to be what everyone expects from me.
So. today, i have my driving theory test tomorrow, i hope i'll pass, i really do, otherwise thats £30 down the drain. i also have to fill in a questionnaire in for a telephone psychological assessment tomorrow.
fun stuff. i guess my previous paragraph covers tomorrow, as apposed to today, today wasnt fantastic, i had a mental block, like writers block, but i had it in speech, i found it difficult to speak at times, but my friends helped as normal, but it still was difficult especially in english today, where Coral (an ex girlfriend who specifically goes out of her way to make my life difficult) was there as always, and even with massive anxiety i managed it. i guess thats a good sign eh? i also had Emma(the girl ive recently broken up with) not responding to my texts, i asked to give me back my stuff but she likes to ignore me...
i guess girls are a perfect way to find out about yourself, i find out mostly, that i'm a prick, so i then spend time trying to convince my friends and family i'm that in fits of tears... but they convince me otherwise, and so i try and tell emma that im not a horrible person and she insists i am... it ends up being just like tennis, continually back and forth but the ball is my happiness, increasingly becomming more worn and tired, and eventually itll break.
ohwel, i guess this evening will be consumed with drawing, and watching a film, i thinking, either Juno, A Beautiful Mind, Moulin Rouge or Twilight, i guess ill decide that later.
on a happy note, i hope everyone reading this is okay, i do. and dont be shy to comment i dont mind honest :)
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