Midnight In A Perfect World.

why should i be said thats what i dont understand.
beauty in negative spaces.
isn't that an album by seether?
i believe it is..

Death,.


what is death.
nobody really knows,

sure its the passing of a human from life, where all brain activity and consciousness cease to exist, the heart stop pumping blood cell division eventually stops everything in the body, finishes, is that death?

or is death the loss of somebody.

Death can be viewed in a positive light i guess, if someone is suffering then death is a good thing? why is it now a good thing if theyre suffering? surely its worse, because they didnt have a sudden death, and they knew it was coming?

so if someone has cancer and it's terminal. (my grandma had) you know youre going to die, you prepare to die, you give up, what life is that?
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whereas, if someone gets hit by a car, isnt that worse, because the person never got to say goodbye,
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surely people shouldnt measure whether death is good or bad, death is death, be sad, that they died, but be happy for the memories, mourn, but never forget, move on, but cherish what time you had with them, remember what impression they had on your life, but your life is for living isnt it? they wouldnt want you to be sad

i sound cold.

im sorry if i do.
my neighbour. Ralph, died today, im worried, i didnt feel much, im sad, but i cant cry, i havent taken my anti depressants, because i want to be upset. but i cant. he had emphysema and 1st stage heart failure, but he shouldnt have died the way he did, no one knows exactly how he died, but he shouldve seen christmas.
he was like a grandparent to me, because my dads grandparents live a while away, and my mum only has a dad, whose died.

i have the same memory over and over, of playing connect four with him.

im okay though, im a bit teary as i write this, and my coherancy is going.
but my parents are really upset, and theyve gone to tell my brother whose at a friends house, it was his godfather too.

i hate death, but if there is an afterworld surely he'd be happier now?

i hope youre okay.
Daniel.