ThereIsSomethingISeeInYou.

my hands shake,
i fucking hate adrenaline rushes. i love the usual experiances like rollercoasters, but the feeling of sickness isnt that great especially with all the alcohol i had last night.

i think i dont like adrenaline because i associate it with bad experiances, like running the 100 metres in sports day, i always hated it, because i was slow, :/ and i hated letting my team down. and myself more than anything.

i guess this another experiance i wish to forget.
"you're a cunt" is what i got sent today over facebook, by a person in the year below me, (for the sake of this blog and possible further references his name is Connor Rundle.
he's a close friend of my ex's
i dont speak to them, i dont consider them worth thinking about,
but a few times now ive been dragged into drama, and i dont understand why, what did i do to deserve this he said he "knows all the things ive done" and hopes i can live with myself because he wouldnt be able to. i didnt do anything! this is what gave me the adrenaline, i was furious with anger, and in two minds, i started to doubt what kind of person i am, i havent done anything? im not that horrible am i?

sigh, i hate this.

im going to blog later about the party last night <3
itll be happier i swear.

i hope youre okay
Danielx