my half term was suprisingly good.
i spent around 1/3 of it going out... mostly drunk, which still hasnt lost its novelty now im 18 and legal to. i also managed to spend a lot of times with friends, all of them. i saw even the hollywood goers. i also got loads of school work done. so in the grand scheme of things it was productive.
i have a few things to look forward to aswel. im going to be contributing to a film score for my friend Glenn, which im immensely looking forward to, and everything on the school front is going smoothly, for the first time all school year, im entirely up to date, nothing is lingering behind, and it takes massive pressure off of me to get that right.
it feels right now, that in a way the screws are tightening, everything is slotting together but isnt perfect, but things are going in the right way.
but i got a letter from the councilling service today, i wish we could afford to go private i wouldnt have to wait so long. because im now on the list to wait to be seen the joy. so my lingering anxieties and depression are going to be around for a while. but aslong as nothing or no one makes them worse then i should be fine.
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This is a song, i was listening to it as i walked in the rain this morning on my way to school, with my russian hat on.
it made me think, of life and stuff and the turn of events. how things change and how people change.
Kass asked me yesterday if i believed in fate. i wasnt sure.
but i know when im better off and when i dont. and as much as things are fantastic right now, i can live with this.
so here it is Jimmy Eat World - Shame
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