WhereWeBelong.

i sat here thinking over a blog in my head, the word fuck came up numerous time.

basically it started with
"i want to go out and get fucked"
i want to go away with some friends in the summer for a couple days, camping. and basically just go get pissed for a couple days, right before we all go off around the country.

the other fuck,
was i want to say that, i want to say "fuck you" to the most hypocritical ignorant self centred wanker in my life. i just want to laugh in his face the next time he speaks to me
and walk off.
when i go to university im going to everything he wouldnt expect of me, everything that would disappoint him that they'd hate me for, because im tired of the expectation im tired of being what you and every fucking twat has ever wanted from me.

im venting,

im not feeling depressed, im not that bad, im just frustrated at life, and a certain few people in my life and that arent.

i want to go and scream in a field, i want to throw my chair out of the window.
i hate you, you know?
i hope you read this sometime.

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you shouldnt be alarmed, really im okay, you know when you just want things to change so much and you cant make them. i want that. a lot right now.