Capathia

my room is kinda dark at the moment, all i can hear is the swooshing noise that my ceiling fans makes, and im sitting here after a shower typing away at my laptop, sitting on the side of my bed, feet on the ground, occasionally scratching my growing beard, (which i will shave off before i next go out).

I feel kinda secluded you know, like i need something fresh and new in my life, i'm not enjoying summer as much as i anticipated. dont get me wrong i love summer, but the fact is im now atleast 6 weeks into it, and im getting a little depressed. i noticed a few shakey moments over the past week, but it's been nothing i can't handle.

It just seems the days are melting into one, and nothing makes them standout.

Money makes the world go round unfortunately, and it stops me and my friends doing what we want. in a way i'd like to just see them everyday and do probably non interesting things, but they seem to possess a similar level on cant-be-assed-depression/melancholia and sit at home procrastinating in a monontonous cycle.

ERGH

I want something spontaneous to happen.

At the moment i keep setting myself targets of enjoyment.
Tomorrow, Gaby said she'd be on msn, for a webcam chat.
Monday, im going to the jobcentre, which im not necessarily looking forward to, but tap in the evening.

after that... i have nothing.
i need to check up on Chris, i talked to him momentarily today, but we should meet up.
and i need to meet up with max max and tom, especially seeing it was one of the max' birthday today.

Sigh.
Even music is feeling repetative at the moment. URGH

i feel pmt without being a girl.
that's probably a bad analogy.