I Can Feel A Hot One, Taking Me Down

you know when you try to reach out,
to someone and it kinda just fails and falls flat on it's face, yeah i've experienced that today for the second time in a month.


at the moment, im toying with multiple emotions, and non-emotions, trying to block them out,
im trying to think of happier things, people, times.

I'm just scared of losing you know?


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I was waiting for my shower to warm up this evening, my hair ripped back,
in an almost Peter Serafinowicz style (see photo)



without a top on looking into the mirror thinking to myself, about what i want from my life. who i want to be, who do i want to present myself to be. i always like having long term goals even if i dont have a distinct plan.

the idea of growing up living in a cottage in rural wales or ireland or scotland, seems to be what i definately want, i want to grow a beard, with floppy hair, wearing chequered shirts, and my thick glasses, shy on immediate contact, but relaxed around people i know, i want to live where im a stones throw away from the city but i can still see the tranquility of nature.

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I've got Manchester Orchestra stuck in my head on repeat, just the simple guitar melody.

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Tomorrow should be a good day, im dying my hair :) and then off to my friend matt's for "revision"

i'll show you all a picture :)


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I miss my fantastic friend Daryl, we should talk properly, maybe a phone call sometime? lemme know when you read this, it's been a lil too long for my liking :)








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It would be great to just lie on my floor in the dark listening to this song high.