October 23rd 2009

So today, Thursday 23st of October 2009, times flown by this year, i have accomplished a lot i guess, by that i mean ive been involved in many things, situations. ive had so many experiances, for the most part ive enjoyed my time, but ive had very bad experiences too. but in reterospect i dont have many regrets, ill learn from these mistakes, move forward, and this time next year ill be off at university and moving onto new things, a time when i can redesign myself, be what i want instead what other people want.

i wont have the pressures of my parents, my teachers, but still the support of my friends, and ill escape from the pressures of relationships, which ive had this year, the hell thats been associated with them, in a way i dont regret them, but i wish theyd gone better.

i say this all on the back of telling my ex girlfriend that ill never get back with her and her accusing me of being a liar, and proclaiming her immense dislike to me.

i find that writing this blog is therapeutic, im sorry if i rant on around the same issues in my life, but right now taking day by day and talking through everything is helping me, as i suffer with depression and social anxiety, school for me lately has been unmanageable and i have missed so much. knowing that this is open but no one i know will read it is comforting and a load off my mind.