Tonight was impressive, i decided not to go out for the third night in a row, and let my liver recover, so i stayed in an just chatted with the other non-drinking people, after three days, we got all really open and spent hours talking about real serious stuff, being at uni everyone is so different, like i'm the most southern person and apparently i come from a little pansy county of england.
we spent a lot of time talking about religion openly, and i'm agnostic personally but kinda understood why people were open to religion and live with god in their lives.
I'm not converting or anything but it opened my eyes and made me feel closer to these people and able to trust them. The foundations of new friendships i guess.
I also got to spend time with my art people. and it was really interesting, theyre all really nice.
But like emotionally im a wreck, like as in a cant quite handle all of these new scenarios and i dont feel quite safe. im way out of my comfort zone, and actually a little homesick.
I'm possibly rearranging to see a councilor. which sounds quite depressing, but... it's hard to explain, but like it's more because i know im not ready to cope with this all yet.
But i'm okay in reality i guess.
Everything is all up in the air and like, nothing is stable, i don't like stable, but i must thank Daryl, her texts make me feel a thousand times better. :) i hope she reads this.
1 comment:
of course i did, :) you're on my feed again thank god ! :) i'm really glad your getting on well. i was worried that you would miss home, but even if you do it'll pass. love! xoxo
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